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Today's the actual day. We went to change early in the morning and waited for last rehearsal. the girl that was playing the drum for the band is called Sarah. Very chio and damn seh!!! So cool lor when she was playing the drum....wow...Then put on make up and took some pixs...hee....Hey rach thx for helping me record the performace *hugs* i think our performance was not as gd as the rehearsals....certain parts messy..okie i am not gg to tok abt the process again...but i realise that if i let myself loose a little and not take the whole thing so seriously...i think i kindda enjoyed myself throughout this whole experience. I mean during the rehearsals. It's like i'm doing what i love most...my passion and to be able to stand on stage again...that feeling cannot be put into words. So i know i complained a lot and stuff yes that's the personal thingy..but when performing on stage it's a total diff experience. I can see that all of us enjoyed the dance, even though there were mistakes here and there. But we had fun. We enjoyed it. Plus the fact that not all of us had dance backgrd...it's pretty okie already. I guess i was expecting too much initially. But i dun regret what i wrote and said cuz that 's hw i truly feel.

To my dears: Thx for all the encouragements b4 my performance..hee they are boosters to my confidence....love u all..~~!!!!!!!!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:14 pm

Suppose to end sch early today...but stayed back for rehearsal. After sch, gina and faizah went to get the accessories and stuff. I didn't go with them cuz i got lib duty. Later Terenece,kp,hl,wl,rach,elmo and i slacked/studied in the lib. Very gao xiao...lolx...Elmo was chosen to go to this NE intrview thingy based on the survey that she did...lolx...dun even know which one was it...!~~Has to go meet up with Mr. Hassim..muahahaha..Then saw HIM in the lib also with his classmates....so dao never even say hi to me or wat so ever....pls lor i was walking abt when i was doing shelving...basic courtesy to greet okie...blah...After Gina they all came back we went to do rehearsals and dressed up for rehearsal....we were wearing this malayish costume...but it looks not bad lah...black top,jazz pants,silver cloth wrapped ard waist, and hair accessories...really reminded me of Genesis Dance...lolx....haiz started rehearsal at 6 2 runs...waited for a long time in the recital room. Haha the grand piano was our only source of entertainment. Oh not forgetting Lili too who had to give in to our requests to teach us the new Mass dance which i think is one of my fav so far...hee. So after our 2nd run, the teachers were smiling and applauding...which we thought was a good sign...indeed it was. They said we improved and we felt good too!!! hee....Anyways ended late...so tired now...tml must wake up early....

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:56 am

Extracted my tooth at the dentist's today....*ouch*

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:03 pm

Went airport to study with fui and cla this afternn. Hee. Saw nyguen and her bf and eleen there too! haa...Was engrossed in mugging until we heard screams from behind us and then suddenly half the pple in the BK was gone. It was then that i remb that Energy was touching dwn at Singapore today for the zpop concert. But i nv tot that we'll get to see them! haa...Many fans were crowding ard the barricades trying to catch a glimpse of them. Being kpoh i went also lah..haha..Saw all the members walking pass, so near and so clear..blah...kun da really look like my sis....lolx...

Then continue mugging after the commotion was over...lolx...

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

2:53 pm

LOve "Qian Jin Bai Fen Bai" super super nice!!!! Never seen such splendid shows le!!! So captivating and all........arhhhh....the show and soundtrack roxs man!~~~
Credits to the webby! hee

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:32 pm

Wat a day...had dance rehearsal just now...wl total disaster man...so messy..the teachers were like saying the coordinations very bad...esp the part tat i had wanted to abolish..was very tempted to say : " I told you so" but i didn't. Hey everybody made mistakes and didn't dance well so stop rubbing in and saying that yesterday u guys were perfect in coordination cuz i presume tat u are saying that i drag u guys cuz i was the only one not present yesterday. But hell who cares abt yesterday. It is not as if u are so perfect urself so stop saying it even if u dun mean to pin point at me!!! I do MODERN DANCE okie...get it????I have had experiences okie..Then there's the prob of no able to fully rehearse with EVERYBODY present. The practices we had can't even compare to the practices i used to have in the dance club, this is just amateur okie..i'm only concern abt the interest of the whole team, it's not a matter of whether u like it or not okie...if it is messy it'll look ugly....now i have to help clean up the mess...and then pple will start thinking that i am so authoritative.....blah....i've had enuff...since pple dun listen to me...FINE..i'll just play along lor...i'll just do well on my own part....sick sick sick....

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

9:21 pm

sometimes i really dun understand..i really want to help and make the whole thing look nice...but then why must u always cum and ruin it. I dun mind u helping but pls make it relevant can?? It just doesn't suit the song so dun force it. It is suppose to be modern and stuff not traditionally correct. It's not MALAY DANCE for god's sake!!!! Arhhhhh!!!! I dun want us to look clownish and stupid...........there's nuthin malay in the dance,indian yes,modern yes, but why do u always have to make EVERYTHING so malayish. We'll look so stupid and stuff...i know cuz even thoguh i quit dance liao i WAS in MODERN DANCE before. So i want us to dance the rite stuff and not make a fool out of ourselves on stage. And dancing is not as simple as u think. We need to be coordinated...all your moves always make us seem messy. I really dunno wat to say cuz apparently nobody except hl feels the same way as i do. I have ahd enuff!

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:06 pm

*sigh* so fan so fan..........so many things to do..so little time.....had a horrible week cuz i was sick for a few days. Yesterday my gum got infected again. This time more serious and the sore throat got worse. Went to see the dentist and she helped me 'poked' out the pus. She was like saying how very swollen and how much pus there was inside tat's why it's so swollen and painful *ouch**ouch* She was scrapping and scrapping...damn painful but wat e hell i dun care as long as it will get better...haiz next week have to go back to extract the stupid teeth after the swell has gone done. Today went to sch for Bio Spa Assessment, luckily it is only skill B. I think it was quite okie. haa Later left for the dental appointment so i missed the lib investiture. Heck i really need a lot of rest.....Prelims cumin, promos cumin...must go listen to jay's album now, tat's one of the things that'll de-stress me~....

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

7:25 pm

Now at the lib so u cud guess wat period it is now. 3 hrs of free time. Actually today can go hm at 210pm cuz no pe, but staying back to finalise the dance and to teach the rest. *sign* Yesterday was a terrible day, today is also a horrible day. Was late for sch this morning cuz i was sick and tat i cud not even walk ard the hse due to muscle ache. This is one of the worse aches that i have in my life. Cuz yesterday ran 2.4km mah...then stayed back to dance, TYS came my hse and we thought of the steps until like 11 plus lo...i'm really grateful to her...thx girlie..*muackz* HAiz toking abt 2.4km i was so angry with myself. I failed lor can u believe it!! My 1st time failing the run in my whole life and by a mere few seconds only!! wl...haiz..now lose morale le dun think i even have the motivation to do well for the 5 items next week. HAiz i am, super tired now...i'm falling sick...legs hurt like hell...

This week super stress...yr 2s stress we also got stress wat. Tml got bio make up mock spa, fri got the rehearsal,sat worse everythign clash. HOme visit,Spa Assessment,Lib Investiture....Not gg hm visit, doing bio spa at 730 am!!! *wl* then gg lib investiture...sianz unitl like 250pm or smthin. Thought i cud be exempted frm these kinds of events cuz yuan sheng told me before tat i dun have to attend such stuff wat....blah...maybe he forgot to tell the new excos.....

*yawnz* i hope they like the steps that we tot yesterday, cuz we really, or rather ys had a tough time linking them all up.......

-it's not worth my efforts, it's not worth my tears, it's not worth my pain if pple dun appreciate it-

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:22 pm

藉口 -周杰伦

翻着我们的照片想念若隐若现
去年的冬天我们笑得很甜
看着你哭泣的脸对着我说再见
来不及听见你已走得很远
也许你已经放弃我也许已经很难回头
我知道自己错过请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我就算是我不懂能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果我也能够随
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺
你说给过我纵容沉默是因为包容
如果要走请你记得我如果难过请你忘了我

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

4:39 pm

wasn't feeling well in the morning. sianz. Met up with the gals ard 4 like tat. Confirmed some steps and rehearsed. Rach didn't join for this dance, so tat left me,gina and faizah. No matter wat just get it done and over with since we had been practising for the past few days. BUt hey Rach u better join for the other 2 dances hor... hee :P Anyways, saw this guy who is someone's fren. He reminded me of HIM. haha Actually i saw him before and i did mention to some ppl that the feeling and aura this guy gave me resembles that of HIM. Haha okie lah so long le i over le lah but i mean u know kindda those same feelings which i think is like so qi miao. Cuz they are 2 different pple mah. haha. Anyways today a lot of things clash. Auditions at 5 plus in LT2 and there's captain ball's match later for Gina and faizah. haha we had to explain to the teacher supervising abt our dance, she told us that she wanted to see the full thing next fri. I think it is gg to be tough cuz i dunno hw are we gg to get the whole class or majority to join, plus we had to think of the steps, teach them and practise...all by fri...arrhhhh...stressed man....

After that went to watch them play cb cuz waiting for Rach. The janices,yq,faizah,venetia,liling and joyce and Rach playing. I think they played well lah though u know lost the games but the impt thing is to have fun and enjoy mah. Haiz if i wasn't feeling unwell i wud have joined too. I havent played bball and cball for a loonng time....wah lao some pple frm the other teams damn no sportsmanship, when yq and venetia they all were knocked dwn some supporters like cheered...wl wat's their prob...haa...another relaxing day....went rivervale mall with rach to buy some food then went hm ard 8 plus almost 9...tired...........tml still got chem remedial.........arh.....

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:45 am

Stayed back after sch with Gina,faizah,rach and Xin to practise the dance. Hahaha...i think we were quite okie...at least managed to come up with smthin!! hee...very funny...had a fun time. Were thinking of funny dance moves when we were taking breaks in between hee. Wat sweeping the floor,wiping the board,flushing the toilet...........*pengz* lolx think the art students really had enuff of us liaoz...but we cud only cum up with a few steps cuz the audition is like tml and we were like so rush lor...only 2-3 days like tat how to come up with the final thing??

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

11:21 pm

Today after sch went scope there to decide on the songs for our teacher's day performance with Gina and faizah. Haiz think of the songs until head big liaoz....finally decided on remix of 3 songs. I called Tys heng she having holiday haha so asked her to come my hse a while to help me think of the steps. Got smthin lah...but still must see wat the rest think......havent danced in a long time

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:16 pm

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

2:36 pm

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!!!!!!

Wahaha Went to Marina bay there to watch fireworks and most imptly the concert yesterday!!! hee. Met up with eunice and her fren at city hall and we walked to esplande there. We didn't wear the red and white shirt immediately cuz very pai seh. haa. We reached ard 1 plus almost 2 yet there was already a loong queue of pple!! wl..since eunice wana go play rides i volunteered to book seat first lor. Haiz was so sianz at first. Sitting under the bridge there alone. Then not long Jovina and Sally came. Hee. They sat behind me and we got acquainted immediately. Found out tat jovina is Pamela's classmate at SP!!!~ Toking abt coincidence. haha they are very friendly and humorous and we got along fine. So i decided to stick with them. Since we still had to wait for like 7 hrs plus, we laid on the mat that i brought in public. muahaha no choice wat nuthin to do. Later on they went off to buy food. Abt 4 plus they came back and i went to change to the shirt and went to buy light sticks. During that time,the artistes were already rehearsing liao. haha 5566,toro r and b ,cyndi and k-one etc. I went to watch 5566 rehearse, arh Zax shuai dai le!!!!*faints* But i cud only see for a while cuz jovina they all called to say we queuing for number liao. So i ran all the way back. But false alarm lah...still have to wait wait wait. The sally recognise the grp in frnt of us as her juniors. Haha so made nw frenz again, a gal and two guys. Oh did i mention that Sally looks like Shu Hong ? haha. Finally ard 6 plus 7, the queue finally moved. We tot we were quite at the back, but the area actually veyr big so we got good view. Everybody was sitting dwn and waiting for the thingy to start. At 830pm the fireworks started. I was wowed. Though we were blocked by trees, they showed the display on screen and those huge higher fireworks cud be seen. SO PRETTY!!!! i liked the splitting fireworks and the shooting star ones!!!!oh man. At 930pm, they concert started. It was chaotic. The frnt pple started standing up dispite shouts frm the back ppl. In the end everybody stood up and rushed in frnt. wl....R&B was the opening act. Zai Zai and Xiao Qiao very pretty!!~~Huai en shuai but later on they danced until like so sweaty haha. There are 2 new members in R&B. Next is Toro. Shuai dai le also!!! haha when he sang "give it up" i saw Lan Bo lao shi!!!!haha the audience were chanting his name too!! hehehe.....Then Yan Xing Shu appeared and performed with toro. They sang the themefor the new drama "ren wo ao you" and revealed that they always go Newton for meals!! haha K-one performed next. "Bei Ying" very very nice!! JR so cute manz!!! haha. They also sang "JIan Ao" with cyndi. She's very pretty and sang well. haha of cuz the finale was 5566. That was when the whole place really went chaotic. In my opinion i tot Zax name was shouted the most times and he kept waving to the fans encouraging more screams!!! So handsome!!! haha. Then all of us count dwn to national day with the all the artistes. It was indeed very memorable for me. My legs were like sp painful frm standing lor...but worth it cuz they were so close, better than gg to paid concerts...haha ....... *happy*

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:52 pm

Went to watch THE VILLAGE with fui and cla. Some pple find it boring, others find it nice. I find it GREAT. Hee. I thought it was gg to be purely horror with minimal emotional scenes but i was wrng. It was not really a horror film, just a bit thrilling as the suspense build up was superb, but it has more to give than horror. Adrien Brody was so convincing in acting the innocent and mentally challenged Noah Percy and all the characters really portrayed the feeling that they are living a so carefree and peaceful life. Pple who watched the movie said there is a twist to the story. For me there were 3 twists in all. This movie really made one think, and reflected on the kind of world that we are living now and sometimes the cruel truth to things. I really really loved the shw cuz it is meaningful and thrilling. I shan't say more to avoid spoilers.

Check this out

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:36 am

*happy* YeaH~~ Finally got my jay album!!!! haha so elated! Waited for so long...went tm with elmo and elephant. muahaha....I'm loving it. Qi li xiang super nice...Wai Po very nice also..i cracked up when i heard the part abt him not winning award...blahaha smthin intersting. Luv Jie Kou!!! Aiya love everything!!!!!!!!!! :P *smiles*

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

10:45 pm

okie my sis just finish watching "Cats on the roof". Told her it was nice. haha i love Kim Rae Won!!! Reminded me of My love patzzi similar lah but each is unique in its own ways.....lalala...okie i admit i'm a drama fanatic. Dunno why i like to indulge in the the storylines, regardless of them being korean,jap,taiwan or hk shws. There's sweetness,sorrow,humour and sometimes watching the shw will invoke anger. hmm. Perhaps the love story between the characters reflect my own fantasies and maybe, just maybe i hope that the story will become reality. Cuz in the real world, there's too much pain. Read my fren's blog abt their fren, really felt sad by the news. Was like reflecting on all that has happened in my life. Been through so much heartwrenching stuff this yr...i really thank those that have been supporting me all these while. Those of u who gave me the courage to brave the storm. haha. Though i always appear to be aloof and crazy, deep dwn i'm grateful to all of u. :P Yup and i seriously believe tat happiness is infectious. So i try to make pple smile, even though sometimes it is difficult even for me to do so.
And ya kl i am grateful to u, i know u cared i do too. hee. Just to let u know.

okie enuff emotional stuff, so unlike me. hee. Anyways currently crazy over "DOU TU". *sigh* i want the weekend to last longer.....

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

1:04 pm

Went wanni's hse to watch the fireworks display just now. Real pretty!! haha There were even pple on the roof of the oppsite blks just to watch the fireworks lor.lolx. We were very anxious before the thing started and were so mesmerised by the whole display when it begun. haha we had a great view and can see the fireworks clearly and closely. Felt wonderful!! haha...Was hoping that it wud last like forever kindda thing cuz really very nice...hee...

Oh forgot to mention that we fianlly get to see Nemo again. haha...with wanni's tender,loving care, it is growing pretty well. :P

hmm..maybe next week go see again?? hee :)

"You leave me SPEECHLESS, when you talk to me."

12:01 am