One week is over! Time passes so fast! Well seems like i have done a lot for this past week haha. Also took a lot of photos so here are the updates!!

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Third day of work and i am dying!!!!

Never have i been so exhausted. These days have been a mad rush, with the induction programme, and also having to adapt to the new people, colleagues, environment and know about the practices. Didnt have enough sleep at all and there are so many responsibilities and stuff to remember! I was suppose to be in the afternoon, but everyday i have been going to work at 8 plus until 6 plus or even 7pm. We are all totally overwhelmed and information overloaded. Plus there are some stuff that we still cant access as we have not gotten our laptops. Grr. Now we know why all the teachers are so thin cuz they have no time to eat at all!! Tml is going to be my very first lesson with my very own class and i am quite excited about it. This evening shifted my stuff over to my new desk already. This week is really a hectic and blur week for us. I really really hope from next week onwards it will be better. Bye bye social life, hello stressful life.

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EMO day yesterday because it is the last day of practicum!! And also we received a big big shocker news from Papa bear. He is going to another school!! NOooooooo....all of us were so sad...we cannot 并肩作战anymore!

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Am at work now but i have to blog. Because i cannot contain my happiness!! hahaha.

Finally done with another observation today!! Yay! Worked till pretty late last night haha but all the effort was worth it! My teacher said i improved a lot and gave me very good feedback!!! Yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha Yesterday also received the form from my sup and the feedback was also very good! Double happiness! All the late nights and the effort in the preparation of the materials were really worth it! Seriously i am so elated that words cannot describe my feelings nows. It's like all the effort has gotten recognised and acknowledged and the feeling is simply wonderful. haha 7 down 3 more to go. Anyways just wana share my joy to all on this blog haha.

To all my colleagues, just 2 more weeks!Ganbatte ne~ !!

To all my uni frenz preparing for exams, jiayou jiayou too and look forward to may and june!!!

060608 :P

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Games Carnival was tiring but fun this morning!!!

Was in a pretty relaxed mood today because there was no lesson hahahaha. The kids were pretty excited too because they were making a lot of noise during assembly lol. Anyways, the whole carnival was pretty well-planned, with many activities going on at simultaneously at different areas of the school. I followed one of my class and ct to the hall as all the p4s were going to play floorball. It started off pretty well with my class winning all matches, but they got knocked out during the semis. Some of them were pretty upset, and some even cried. So my ct and i had to counsel some of them and make them feel better. I was also busy taking pictures wahahaha.

I also went down from the gallery to view the matches for my second class because the kids were also on a winning streak. Actually what made me happy was the fact that i could really get to interact with all of the kids and my cts today and have fun together. When the kids from different classes greeted me and kept coming up to me to tell me about their games, i was really very happy. Even the rascals from last yr also kept calling me lol so i also had to take pixs with them again. They can be so adorable sometimes wahaha. So i counted and i feel that i am so proud of all 120 of them ( 80 this yr + 40 last yr cuz they still remb me hehe). They showed great sportsmanship and they gave their best in all the games. Of cuz, hope they will continue to have this quality in other aspects of their lives lah haha.
After the prize-giving ceremony, there was the farewell for the exchange students. It was also a very nice and sweet moment with the performances put up by both sides as well as the gift exchange time. By the time everything ended, i was famished! So me and elly quickly went to eat the food that was catered for us lol.Oh and i realised i took like 100+ photos just for this event! LOL! Super exhausted, but i had a super fun and enriching day! :P

And our dear Mr Koh is finally a dad!! OMG i didnt know i was so zhun in the prediction oops haha CONGRATS!!!!!!!

Feel like exercising this weekend! :P

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Happy Birthday to Ar Gal! Sorry that i am a day late cuz i didnt have time to come online!

Anyways, finally got to meet pig again yesterday! haha. This week has been a really really tough week, with me rushing all the work and ob stuff, as someone's nick had put 'forgotten the meaning of sleep'. Indeed when i come home everyday, i will try and nap if i can, but this week i had no time to sleep and eat at all. Whenever i tried to rest, i would be thinking about work. Thinking about what to plan and do the next few days, plan the schedule next week and think about the obs and assignment. Really brain drained.

Thankfully, seeing you has made me feel so much better. Thanks for being there for me too. And i realise that i really have to meet up with my girlies! If it's not possible, i hope to meet up with them after my pract because i miss them lots lots!!!

Oh and i wana go picnic someday hehehehe....

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First day of practicum!
Time really flies man. It seems like we had only just completed our TA, now we are starting our TP already. I was pretty excited yet nervous about going back to school again, because we will be working and not studying anymore~ This time elly and i both have 2 classes to handle, which means we will be working with 80 kids not 40. I guess we'll really really have to try our best to remember their names and faces.

Anyways, it was a tiring but interesting start to TP for me. Tiring because i didnt get much slp last night due to anxiety and had to wake up super early this morning. I also had a lot of breaks today, so that explains the exhaustion. Interesting because i experienced lotsa stuff today. We were introduced once again to the whole school, and some kids do recognise us from last yr. It felt kindda good for them to call our names and to be able to still remember us after 1 year wahahaha...nice feeling :)

Well, went to both my classes, met up with my two cts as well to get acquainted with the class profile and to plan some stuff with them during my break time. All of us trainees are seriously on a tight schedule this 10 weeks with 10 observations to clear and all the stuff that are going on in the school. We are really hard pressed for time and the fact that we can only start teaching after the hols isnt helping, because we dun have enuff exposure before the obs. But we will try our best lah. So far i'm quite happy because i think that my cts are very very nice and that the classes this time are pretty all right. Perhaps it is because i have handled the worst before, so now i am all right with handling the normal class. It's the good class that i have to take note of and perhaps would pose a challenge for me.

Oh and i am really glad that all 5 of us are able to work tgt again with a new addition to our group-Ying Li. TA was fun with u guys and i'm sure this time it will be too. Love the other staff of the school as well as they are all very friendly and nice to us :)

After school, Elly and i went to watch one of her class pupils cultivate plants using hydroponic method and we got to try too! Enriching! :)

Then ard 3 plus, we went to Punggol Plaza to meet kj and stephen to eat. I was super hungry cuz didnt eat whole day! Anyways the PSK meet-up was fun!!! So glad that we are all in this together! Love the sharings and jokes. Must meet more often and also if got chance meet up with the others as well!!!!!!! I love u guys!!!!!!!!!~ :P

Gonna rest now :)

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Partings are never easy...

Time really flies. Yesterday was the last day of my attachment and it was also an emotional day. I was having my observation on that day too so there were a lot of things on my mind. I could sense that the kids were restless in the morning when i took them for math. Perhaps they were expecting no lessons or something. Elly and i bought some cakes for our classes. Her class ate during lesson time, but for my class i wanted to continue and finish up some stuff before i officially leave the place, so i continued lesson as per normal. During recess, i brought the cakes and candies to the canteen and met them and my teacher there. Then we distributed the cakes with the help of chantel's mother. Haha. The flavours were fruit, chocolate, banana and marble. Needless to say, the chocolate cakes were a hit haha. But it was the candies that really made the kids go nuts. It was an amusing sight.

Then i went staff room to prepare for the next lesson. Just as i was about to leave, my teacher came in and told me to wait a while as the kids need to finish something. I knew they had something for me lah, you know they cant keep secrets lol, but i dunno exactly what they have in mind. So ya i took my time walking to class and when i entered, my teacher told them to do whatever they wanted. So one by one they came and gave me little gifts and cards. I was very touched and happy.






But i did not expect what was to come. Everything was fine and well until i read the card from the class. I saw the message that my teacher wrote for me and i broke down immediately.

Because when i read this, it reminded me of how much i have went through for the past weeks. 5 weeks seemed like 5 years. I remembered how apprehensive i was about taking the class, how i wanted so much to prove other people wrong about the class, how i tried my best to think of fun ideas and activities to make the lessons interesting. I was reminded of how much sleep i have lost in plannning the lessons, how i strained my throat when i have to scold them almost everyday, how i almost died and puked blood when marking their works until late late evening when i'm the last to leave the school, how i cried twice since starting the attachment and how many times i have to assure myself that i can do it.

But... i was also reminded of the funny things that they said and did in class, the time when one boy gave me the flag that he drew and ran away cuz he was shy, the times when i was very impressed by their works and what they could do, the days when they were well-behaved and enjoyed my lessons, the occasional things that they said to me like when izz told me i was the best teacher ever, it really warmed my heart. I never ever thought that my attachment to the class will be so strong.

I was really emotional, because this is a very tough class to teach and i was really proud of myself to have made it this far. I mean my friend often told me how her best class appreciates her etc etc, the kids in my class dun tell me or show me anything. So whenever they said or did something nice it was espeically sweet. And yesterday got so many of them gave and said nice things, so i was emotional. Yes, i may not have received the big card or huge and expensive gifts that my friend's class gave her, but i appreciate these little gifts much much more. Because these really came from the bottom of their little hearts. And i really learnt alot from this class. I empathise with a lot of them because of their family backgrounds, so i really want to do my best to help them. I am happy because i realised that my efforts were recognised and that i have made a difference in some of their lives. Words could not describe my feelings. :)

haha so i think my ct and the kids were rather shocked when i cried. Some kids start crying as well and my ct told them to have a 5 minutes break. I look so ugly can with all the mascara etc smudged! Told myself not to cry liao but could not hold back the tears. Then i presented my card to my teacher to show my appreciation and also said some last words to the kids. Then it was on to my lesson observation. lol. I think that was the best lesson that i had delieverd. save the best for the last lol...no lah think because i have grown and improved a lot since i started. :)

Anyways, forgot to take class pix! But managed to grab hold of some of them to take haha. Some rascals left but luckily i caught one haha so he shall represent them all!! Countless times i have to scold him sia haha and always gives me the cheeky smile. Then more celebration in the staff room. Started crapping and taking pixs~ Then poor me and elly had to finish our marking!! In the end stayed until 7pm still could not finish.

When i came back home, I cried like hell again. I think i am crazy lol. Cuz i opened up the gifts and read the cards that they gave. Think my bro got a shock too.

This morning i went back to finish marking everything. Saw my ct too and she was surprised to see me haha. And she found the card that one kid wanted to give me. She told me that kids dunno how to express themselves, so they will use funny ways and means to show it. lol. then i also passed her the cd containing the pictures.

This puts and end to my attachment and sch will start in a week's time. I will never forget this experience as well as the class of MT3-1. Hope to be able to see them again.

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A brand new start!

Today was feeling so so much better after talking it out and getting it off my chest. Credits also goes to esther who made me feel more assured and more aware of what i should be doing. Another reason why i felt that way yesterday was because it was only my 2nd day and perhaps i was expecting a lot from myself and whatever class that i will be given. Plus my mentor didnt have time to explain things to me in detail so i was having a lot of insecurities. It's pretty daunting to take a class of 40! But after some self-reflection, i sorted out my thinking. I am hoping to see this as an opportunity for me to learn and gain experience. Shall not think so much about the assessment. I had a long chat with my mentor this afternoon to get to know her and the pple better. I must say i am really very lucky to have her because she is very experienced and she is willing to help me in any way possible. It's nice to have her assurance and after knowing the plans for the next few weeks and stuff i really felt a lot better. If not i would still be feeling lost. And today she allowed me to help facilitate the class so i get to interact with a few of them, ( though most of them are happy just waiting for answers hmm).. but ya the more i try the better i will get so i guess its good to start early. Cuz actually we got certain timings for doing stuff, but my mentor is very flexible :)
And i went for my first staff meeting today!! Haha so cool~ Many activities are coming up so will be super busy for them. But we can try and help them here and there. Haha and my mentor so nice she invited me go sentosa with the class!! It's a fieldtrip and gg underwater world too haha and i pay 2 bucks yayness haha just that it will be a long day but i dun mind :)

Even though only been attached for 3 days, but i really learnt a lot and i really get to see all the efforts that everyone puts in to enhance the place and give the best to the children. It's really a tough job, but definitely a fulfilling and meaningful one...so i will also perserve in this long long journey of mine :)

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Well my attachment started yesterday. It was pretty interesting and fun and we learnt many things, we also have our own desks! yay! So bought some stuff to put there so that dun have to bring everyday. And the best part is the distance as it is near my place and so more convenient to go there :)

For 1st 2 weeks we are suppose to just have observation and see how lessons are being conducted in our allocated class and also some other classes.Since my in charge was not ard yesterday i sat in another class. This morning i also had to go a different class before finally getting to meet my in charge. I mean i already knew that the class i was attached to is quite weak and i'm very very grateful to my in charge for telling me and informing me all these. But when i really went into the class and observe, i was really overwhelmed. Not the fact that there were weak and problematic children, but i kept thinking abt how am i gg to handle them because they are so so different from the other classes. And by right we are not suppose to be given such classes for our first time. I have totally no experience at all! And i worry because we will be assessed on our management skills! I mean i dun mind having such a class, but as i continue to watched their behaviour, it is really really quite tough. Then i began to have many questions and i started to think how am i gg to conduct a lesson proper with them. I had intended to try out many interesting ideas with them, but seeing that they may be difficult to handle, my plans are wasted. I feel that i have no confidence in handling them. And frankly speaking i feel very much unjust.Why is it some pple can have a more well-behaved class while i have to be given such a difficult task? Not that i dun want, in fact i am happy to have it as i feel that i can impart more stuff to them and i sincerely want to help them improve. I think i will derive more satisfaction in helping these weaker ones. But then i have to worry about how i will be assessed and stuff to determine how well i do for this attachment. Then if u are gd and pple cooperate then of cuz u will get gd report. But if i tried my best and pple just dun cooperate, it will definitely affect my results. So i cant help but feel unfair.

I guess all these thoughts are too ovewhelming for me, so when i went back, i was pretty stoned. Then i had to vent it out, so i approached mrslim to tell her about my concerns and worries. Later on even my in charge came and we had a conference tgt to work out the situation. I mean i admit i was pretty emotional, but i cant help it because i wana do well for this. After talking it out with them and having their support and assurance i was much better. But now i am afraid that they may think that i am weak and cannot handle stress. Hai but i dun think so la, they are very experienced and understanding. Hai its only the 2nd day and i'm stressed out by myself and my own expectations. It's really not an easy path. But now after straightening out my thoughts, i am gg to give myself a chance to try and make it work. I will and i belive i can. This is actually a blessing for me, to get exposure to such a situation. Life is full of ups and downs, nothing can be smooth sailing. With experience comes knowledge and in the future i will know how to handle them compared to others who may become panicky like how i felt initially.

JIAYOU!

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